“where your treasure is your heart will be also” // reflection

“Jesus said “where your treasure is your heart will be also.”  Don’t let your treasures determine where your heart is, let your heart determine where your treasures are.  Some of you will do whatever it takes to achieve your goal, I appreciate and respect that.  My desire here is not to attack your dreams but to challenge the ‘undecided’ 18-year old to think about the decisions that they are making today and how they could affect their future before they sign that big note that chains them up for 30 years.”

Is college worth it? (Link to article)

This is a section from a post called “Is college worth it?” from the blog brettshoemaker.wordpress.com. I cannot describe how true this statement is and how deeply I can relate. Coming from a broke college student who is paying her own way through school, this is so important. When it was time to apply to schools, I only applied to three schools in Tennessee because I was determined to live out my dream of going down south (specifically to TN). I found my dream school, looked at the tuition, and convinced myself I could make it work. And it did work out (thanks God!). But come end of July after my freshman year (2 weeks before I was to go back for sophomore year) I realized I could afford another year at my school, but I wouldn’t be able to afford any school (or anything else for that matter) after that. Long story short, after a weekend of tears and prayers, and a semester off, I’m now commuting to a state school, have a $34,000 loan to pay back (plus all those other small unsubsidized/subsidized loans), and 3 more years of tuition and fees to pay until I can graduate with a bachelor’s degree.

Life is rough.

But the good news is that this is what was supposed to happen. It is all apart of God’s plan, and I can say I’m very grateful for the one year I got in TN. I am still sad and disappointed, and sometimes I dwell on it a little too much, reminiscing and or comparing my life now to my friends’ lives who are still there. I’m not loving where I am in life right now, but hey, God’s on my side, leading me down the path He has chosen. So what’s there to worry about?

I will say this: I do not regret taking out that loan. The relationships, the experiences, the lessons were all worth it. But I was so focused on the present and wanting so bad to move far away and experience something different, that I didn’t take the time to look at the big picture. And when I prayed about it, it was more willing God to let it work out than asking if this was the right thing for me.

Overall, I’m happy with the experiences I had. I’m just not thrilled about my bills. But, who is?

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